To be honest, I’m not really sure why. Haha. For a long time, in the back of my mind, I’ve always had this thought “You should do a blog.” There are a few things that have fueled this thought. One, I like sharing ideas with other people. I also love helping people, especially helping other women feel beautiful, valued, etc. However, I think there is a little bit of selfish motive in my mind for writing. I’ve always believed the lie that I’m not a good writer. I think this idea came in college. Up until that point, I had always done very well in school (except one grading period in Chemistry, it was just a C, but we won’t go there), reading and writing not being an exception. There were a few instances in college when my writing wasn’t “up to snuff.” And honestly, I was kind of shocked because for the most part, I had always made straight A’s. The worst experience though was when I had two classes (in the same semester) where it seemed I couldn’t do anything to please the professors of those classes. I know it sounds like I’m just making excuses, (which I hate excuses, given my profession as a teacher) but I’m really not. I barely passed those two classes, by the Grace of God, with C- in both. Now mind you, I made As (I think) in every other college class I took at MHC (now MHU). Anyway…. I’ve always had this incredible dream that I would love to send an autographed copy of a published book I wrote to one of the professors that believed in me and tell him to show it to those colleagues. Lol.
So yes, there is a little bit of selfish motivation behind me writing a blog. But there’s also the idea of proving to myself that I can write and I’m not horrible at it.
I mentioned before that it was a lie that I couldn’t write well. I say it’s a lie because I just started reading “Girl, Wash Your Face” by Rachel Hollis. Before I started, I scanned over the table of contents and noticed how each chapter is based on a lie she used to believe about herself. One of the lies was she wasn’t a good writer. That sort of lit a spark in me along with some other things I read in the book. Which btw – if you haven’t read it, go get a copy.
So why now? Well, besides the aforementioned reasons, why the heck not? I’ve always held myself back in lots of ways, and honestly, I’m sick of it. I’ve always been consumed with worrying about what other people think about what I do. I’m finally starting to realize, it doesn’t matter! If people want to talk about you, they will find a reason no matter what. And like the famous quote says, “What other people think of you is none of your business.” I have One Person to answer to, The Lord.
I actually got my blog website, domain name and all that jazz over three months ago and just kept putting it off and putting it off. I kept thinking maybe I won’t do this after all, but The Lord just wouldn’t let me let it go. So here we are, with The Lord’s help, I’ve started a blog!
So, what’s something you’ve been putting on the back burner?
